Friday, August 20, 2010
Sweater vests and feeling boyish
I've been feeling sort of boyish lately. I'm not really sure how else to say it. Instead of just sitting around thinking "huh?" and wondering why I can't fully articulate my feelings, I decided to incorporated some men's-wear into today's outfit. I thought I'd take Kate Bornstein's advice (from "Hello Cruel World: 101 Alternatives to Suicide for Teens, Freaks and Other Outlaws") and emulate what I find attractive on others. It was more successful than I imagined. It's strange, I want to dress like a man but at the same time am afraid of looking manly. I think my queer identity and the fact that I've always had a body larger (taller/broader/fatter) than deemed appropriate for a woman contribute to this. On paper, I am a big fat feminist ready rebel against these confining ideals, but in actuality, I have at times found myself working harder to fit within these ideals. I remember in grade 9, the year I came out, I refused to wear unisex shoes (like Vans or Converse) because I honestly felt like my femininity was dependant on my girly flats. It may seem silly, but I was not the only young girl afraid to be labelled manly. I don't mean to ramble, but I like to be honest with my readers and a lot of thought did go into this rather simple outfit.
My favourite thing in men's-wear is layers. Vests, plaid shirt peaking out underneath cardigans, and hoodies layered under blazers have me swooning. Although, I don't know how anyone wears that last one without feeling bulky or uncomfortable.
I don't know how to pose like a dude, so instead I look a bit angry. Apologies!
My dad works in a small town an hour out of Edmonton, and I spent the day there with him. This old swing set is in the town's park, I'd be leery to swing on it but I didn't mind posing for a photo. They're getting all new playground equipment soon. Talk about small town, not one person even walked by the whole time I was taking photos!
Plaid shirt - my grandfather
Men's sweater vest - thrifted
Jeans - Old Navy size 18
T-shirt - American Apparel unisex size XL
Shoes - Payless size 11
Necklace - Forever 21
On a completely unrelated note, I wrote and passed the exam for my Class 7 driver's license, so now I have my learner's permit. Heck yeah!